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How to Care For Yourself During The Adoption Process

How to Care For Yourself During The Adoption Process

Adoption is, by far, the hardest things I’ve ever done. I’ve gone through the process twice now and have two beautiful, perfect daughters that I am so grateful for. But there were days I felt like quitting and throwing in the towel. There were days I was angry because the process felt cruel and unfair. There were times when everything felt reckless and out-of-control which was an uncomfortable feeling for me. Of course, this would be taxing on anyone. But for those of us that come to adoption after infertility, we’re already exhausted, weary, and healing from loss and heartbreak. We launch ourselves in to yet another process that is volatile, emotional, and never guaranteed to be successful. Maybe all of that is the reason the process is so rewarding, too. Of course, our children are the best gifts we’ll ever receive. But after you’ve survived and made it through, there’s liberation in the process. There’s a renewed strength and resilience for life. Because if you can go through this, there’s nothing you can’t do. At least that’s what it felt like to me. It’s such a triumph and beautiful process and unfortunately, that very much includes the fear and heartache. But it will change you. It will change your life.

Amidst the chaos and unknowns, I quickly realized how important it was to take care of my physical and mental health. Stress is sure to wreak havoc in our bodies. It breaks down our immune system, clouds our mind, and rids us of sleep. I felt deep, physical heartache which is an aching of the worst kind that nothing can fix but time. I’ve always been an advocate for self-care. But after four tough years through infertility and two adoptions, it has taken on a whole new meaning for me. And it’s more important to me than it ever has been before. And it’s much, much more than luxurious bubble baths and getting your nails done. For me, self-care is an all-encompassing caring for my physical and mental wellbeing. Here are a few ways to love on yourself through the toughest times.

1. Time. I know, that’s probably not what you wanted to hear. Infertility took so much time that we quickly jumped in to adoption. I was desperate for a sweet baby in my arms. But I was emotionally frail, heartbroken, and grieving a loss when we started the adoption process. If you’re coming from a place of infertility, consider taking some time to heal and regroup before springing in to adoption. Honor those feelings and known how truly valid they are. They deserve their own time and space. I feel it’s important to come in to the adoption process with all your strength, might, and an open heart.

2. Talk about it. If you’re anything like me, we bottle up all our feelings and stuff them away because sitting with them is just too painful. But here’s what I’ve learned after seeing a wonderful therapist for 2.5 years: feelings will always surface if they’re not dealt with properly. Sure, you can stuff them away from a while and keep moving forward. But they’ll come back and the pain will still be great. Find a trustworthy therapist. I went to FOUR therapists before finding “the one”. I dreaded this task every single time and nearly gave up. But, I knew I needed to talk about my emotions. I knew that I couldn’t deal with them on my own. It was the greatest decision I ever could have made for my mental health.

3. Find your tribe. By “your tribe”, I’m referring to those that understand what you’re going through and all the unique emotions and situations that come with infertility and adoption. For me, this tribe was on social media. It may sound superficial. But my biggest and most refreshing support came from an online community that I didn’t know existed. There are Facebook groups, such as Mighty Mamas by Adoption, filled with women who understand. This was extremely healing and validating for me and I only wish I would have had this kind of support earlier.

4. Do things you love. Before infertility or the adoption process consumed your life, what did you love doing? When we see “self-care”, we so often think it’s mani’s and pedi’s and shopping sprees but self-care is so much more than that. What makes you happy? How can you simplfy your life and mental clutter? What fills your soul? What makes you come alive? For me this was spending time outside, hiking, kayaking, which I hadn’t done in months. I started reading more and having quiet time for myself. I took a couple visits to the mountains – my favorite place. I took long baths and splurged on more expensive baths salts because they just made me happy. I cried whenever the emotions flooded me. And I let that be okay. And slowly, but surely, I felt my heart heal.

5. Be okay with saying “no”. You have the power to say “no” to anything that makes you less happy. For me, during this season of life, baby showers were torture. You can say no. Pregnancy announcements were cruel. You can control who you follow and limit your time on social media. Dinner dates with girlfriends who all had kids and constantly talked about kids and pregnancy was painful. You can say “no”. Extended family holiday gatherings where noisy distant aunts and cousins constantly asked if you were pregnant yet were dreaded. You can say “no”. I said no a lot.
Caring for yourself should be a priority. Society has taught us that this is selfish. But the world needs a happy, healthy YOU. Your spouse needs you. Your future child(ren) need you. I can take care of my family so much better when I feel happy, loved, and cared for.

 

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